Luciferian in a past life

I had an enormous ego in a past life. That is why I have a large head. Rudolf Steiner talked about this. Humankind's erect posture and large cranium is connected to the influence of Lucifer.

Gothic Cathedrals are very Luciferian, The last time I walked the Earth, I built a Gothic Cathedral that still stands today.

As a Bishop, I fought in the Battle of Hastings and carried a baculum, which I used to exhort troops to battle, and like Bishop Odo, I was not above brandishing it as a weapon. Baculum is also the word for the penis bone found in many mammals. I was a Celibate Bishop who commanded and literally beat people with a Phallic symbol that represented the power and Wrath of God.

I believe the actor that plays the Character of Viktor in Underworld is channeling an archetype that I embodied in this past life. Its an archetype that is very ancient and needs to be dredged up as if from "the Underworld" but in the 11th century it was not underground. This energy ruled England and the known World. I was also a Judge.

These lyrics to "Viva la Vida by coldplay really resonate with me for obvious reasons:

I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own

I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
"Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!"

One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
Once you go there was never
Never an honest word
And that was when I ruled the world

It was the wicked and wild wind
Blew down the doors to let me in
Shattered windows and the sound of drums
People couldn't believe what I'd become

Revolutionaries wait
For my head on a silver plate
Just a puppet on a lonely string
Oh who would ever want to be king?

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world

I hear Jerusalem bells a ringing
Roman Cavalry choirs are singing
Be my mirror, my sword and shield
My missionaries in a foreign field

For some reason I can't explain
I know Saint Peter won't call my name
Never an honest word
But that was when I ruled the world"

Its interesting that in this life, I've been broke and worked as a manual laborer and other entry level jobs most of my life.

I am also generally really gentle with people and have worked as a care giver to people with developmental disabilities. I also find it ironic that I was ex-communicated for heresy from a Christian church.

All in all though I don't sense I have negative Karma from this past life. I believe I accomplished what I was supposed to accomplish and learned what I was supposed to learn. I believe I died in peace and spent my time between incarnations in a very Holy peaceful place. I dwelled in a thin rare, exhalted air like the air high in the energy vortex of a Cathedral Vault, or also like the air high up in the trees of an old growth Birch forest, in a pure cool light.

I chose to descend down into the underworld in order to experience the love of a woman. A woman of the Earth.

My journey is that of balancing polarities, for example the Apollonian and Dionysian. Finding the Golden mean. Empowering others to express their Truth. I know this probably all seems pretty over the top.

Its my myth.